1. Starting Weight: 150lbs (Feb 2013)
2. 144lbs (March 2013)
3. 137lbs (Apr 2013) 
4. 134lbs (May, 2013) 
5. 132lbs (June, 2013)
6. 130lbs (August, 2013)

And i haven't updated my September one because i gained another 2 pounds. (i'm only 5'6" fyi)
And two weeks ago, i felt hopeless and wanted to be a gym member. cause i cant work out at home. cause i always feel lazy if i do it at home. but when i asked my mom and dad about the membership, they got mad. they told me that the gym near my house was full of gigolo and housewives that like to gossip and do any other "stuff". if you know what i mean..

So I didn't say anything about this membership to my parents anymore. I asked my friends about another gym near my place and they told me theres another one but the price is quiet expensive. I searched more and more but found nothing else. No where else. I grew frustrated and last week, last sunday i confronted my parents about it again. and they got mad and started to yell at me about every problem that i caused and that i wanted to make more problems while i already had too much to handle.

After our fight, i got really really angry. I shut the door to my room and locked it from 11am to 9pm. I didn't get out of my room. I only got out to have dinner and pee. I only got out to take my dinner and bring it to my room again. My dad kept telling me to not lock the door but i was too angry so i kept locking it.

The next day, which is Monday. I woke up, got out of bed, got into the shower, got out of the shower, took my bag from my room, and went to school. I didn't meet anyone. I didn't meet any of my family until I got home.

After school, I thanked God I had a meeting with the student club so I didn't have to go home right away. I stayed at school until like 5.30pm (school ends at 3.30) and my mom texted me: where r u (yeah my mom is cool)

And I didn't reply her until the meeting ended. I went home at 5.50 and replied my mom. When I got home, Mom didnt say anything about our fight the day before. So i decided to be mature and didnt say anything rather than whining about why she didnt allow me to be a member at the gym.

I didnt say anything about the gym last week UNTIL yesterday my mom kindly offered me this:
   "Sabrina do you want to be a member at the gym with me?  We can join the ***** gym and go there together. I'll wait for you everytime you go there"

And do you know what I told her? FUCK YES MOM.
And just like that, the problem was solved. I didn't know what hit her but i'm lovin it~

• My best friend.

So firstly i want to make something clear: In my country, not everyone can speak english fluently and not everyone is good with grammar. And not everyone wants to study english. Now, moving on to the subject:

Me and my best friend. Both of us want to  go abroad, live in another country, settle in with hot guys etc etc. Yeah our imaginations are just like that. She loves British, I love American lmao cause Americans are hot. Yeay.

We talk via kik and we always talk in english cause...... i dont know. we're more comfortable talking to each other in english.

The difference between me and her, is that she doesnt care about grammar and i do. I started learning how to speak gramatically when i was in 4th grade. And now (not to brag or anything) but i'm just used to speaking gramatically. While she, she doesnt care because apparently "shes not even american"

So yeah, everytime we talk, she always does some grammar mistakes but i dont mind. as long as i can still understand what shes saying, then its okay.

UNTIL last wednesday, she did THREE grammar mistakes which made a misunderstanding between us. We almost fought but I decided to calm down and just forget about it. cause thats the friend i am.

But i'm torn. Like really really torn. Why?

I don't know whether I should tell her to study grammar or not. Because: 1) she wants to study Law in College, she'll going to really need grammar if she wants to work abroad. so i have to tell her.
but 2) if i tell her, i'll indirectly telling her that shes stupid because she cant study grammar. i dont want to disgrace her. i want to help her.

So i really really really really don't know what to say to her like AAAAAARRRGGGGHHHHH

• Grades/Scores/School Results

Now THIS is my biggest problem. I'm falling behind in some of my classes. Like its getting harder for me to study and all. with so many distraction and i just cant study like i usually do.

The worst thing is that: i'm no longer the kid who gets A+ in Math like i did last year.

WHERE IS THAT KID.

WHERE IS THAT KID WHO WERE ABLE TO DO EVERYTHING HER MOM ASKED HER TO

WHERE IS THAT KID WHO HAD THE STAMINA OF A BOY AND COULD RUN AS FAST AS A BOY

WHERE IS THAT KID WHO COULD UNDERSTAND WHAT THE TEACHER SAID RIGHT AWAY

I MISSED THAT KID

I MISSED HER SO MUCH

I WANT HER TO COME BACK

PLEASE GOD GET HER BACK CAUSE I REALLY MISS HER SO MUCH





Now i feel like every burden on my shoulders have been taken away.
Thank you God. Thank you Blogger. Thank you everyone for listening(reading) every of my rants.



See you all later ;) xoxo